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22

Aug

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21

Aug

Things I discovered tonight

  1. I can still do butterfly stroke! (Okay, it was only a 25 and my arms kinda felt like they were going to fall off after, but I made it all the way down the pool only doing fly. Not too shabby for a girl who hasn’t seriously swum laps in… a year?!)
  2. I absolutely can swim 1000 meters and kick 500 meters when my muscles are feeling a wee bit sore
  3. My gym’s hottub becomes a hotspot for 40-something men at 8:00 pm on Sunday nights. Why were they ALL hanging out there?
  4. (Not discovered, though definitely reaffirmed) Stretching in the sauna does wonders for achey muscles
  5. Vanilla almond milk + rice protein powder = maybethebestproteinshakeI’veeverhad

Thank goodness this is not true. 
I used to be a crazy calorie counter, and the only person that I’ve admitted this to is my current boyfriend. I literally filled notebooks with every single thing I had to eat in a day, big or small. It got to a point where I was either memorizing how many calories certain foods were, or could guess extremely accurately about how many calories something was. It literally took over my life, and I hated it but I thought that eating X number of calories a day would make me skinny, and so I kept on doing it. 
THANK GOODNESS I AM OVER THAT. I didn’t realize admit at the time that it was an eating disorder, but it definitely was. Today, I am much more concerned about eating healthy food and fueling my body correctly so that I have enough energy to push myself at the gym each day. No longer am I searching for “skinny,” but instead am pushing myself towards a strong body that I am proud of. Reducing food to the number of calories it added up to completely took all of the fun out of it for me. These days, I’m glad to eat healthy and organic vegan food when my body needs it so that I can continue on my quest for a strong body.

Thank goodness this is not true. 

I used to be a crazy calorie counter, and the only person that I’ve admitted this to is my current boyfriend. I literally filled notebooks with every single thing I had to eat in a day, big or small. It got to a point where I was either memorizing how many calories certain foods were, or could guess extremely accurately about how many calories something was. It literally took over my life, and I hated it but I thought that eating X number of calories a day would make me skinny, and so I kept on doing it. 

THANK GOODNESS I AM OVER THAT. I didn’t realize admit at the time that it was an eating disorder, but it definitely was. Today, I am much more concerned about eating healthy food and fueling my body correctly so that I have enough energy to push myself at the gym each day. No longer am I searching for “skinny,” but instead am pushing myself towards a strong body that I am proud of. Reducing food to the number of calories it added up to completely took all of the fun out of it for me. These days, I’m glad to eat healthy and organic vegan food when my body needs it so that I can continue on my quest for a strong body.

Dear abs,

It’s been a while since I last saw you. I don’t know if you were as sad about our time spent apart as I was, but it was really killing me. Trust me, since you left I’ve been doing a lot of thinking and have been really sorry over our parting. This morning, though, I noticed that you’re returning! Don’t try to hide from me, I saw the tell-tale line inching its way back into the middle of my torso. And— I know I was kinda pushing you here— when I turned to the side in just the right light, I definitely saw a little bit of your definition next to the bottom of my ribs. 

I guess you’re just being shy because we’ve been apart for about half a year, but trust me: I will never leave you again. This is the promise I make to you, abs. I love you, I love you, I love you. I know we’ll make this work, so you don’t need to hide anymore. I’ll take care of you.

Love always,

Me

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20

Aug

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19

Aug

fuckyeahyoga:

“Let’s trade in all our judging for appreciating. Let’s lay down our  righteousness and just be together.” — Ram Dass

fuckyeahyoga:

“Let’s trade in all our judging for appreciating. Let’s lay down our righteousness and just be together.” — Ram Dass

yoga + electrolytes

I haven’t been to a yoga class in about a month, mostly due to lots of traveling and getting out of sync with my daily routine. Today, though, I knew I was going to be too sore to hit the gym, so I opted for a yoga class instead. And let me tell you I am so proud of myself. Despite being so sore the class flew by like a breeze, and I kept up with every single pose. Oh, and not to mention that I was able to do every “advanced” variation that the teacher offered. My yoga practice means so much to me, and so hopping back into it with such ease and in such a beautiful way made me smile so, so much. This girl is strong, even on her off days. 

I have also been trying to up my water intake recently after realizing that despite all of the water I had been drinking, my body still needed more. For the past couple of days, though, I have still been getting those vague headaches that arise from not getting enough water, so this was the signal to me that it might be time for some added electrolytes. I’ve never been into sports drinks, but I did stumble across Nuun tablets that essentially turn water into an amazing tasting sports drink without the unnecessary junk. I’m definitely digging the flavor, so I’m hoping that they are just what I needed!

Just got back from my friend’s bbq, and I would like to take a moment to pat myself on the back for resisting all of the crazy desserts that were there. Literally I brought a bag of cookies for the party, and touched not a one. Usually I won’t obsess over food here (at least I hope I won’t!), but I just wanted to note a good decision this evening.

Otherwise, today was a gym day— tough day in a row #2. I don’t know what it is, but I have been having a tough time with my workouts. I think it was because I overdid it a week or so ago, and am feeling the effects. Not to mention my less than stellar eating habits (just cookies and fruit for two days? not so good) this past weekend…. I guess it all adds up. Which was part of my resolve to start up this blog again, to keep myself in check. 

Also, good protein intake today. Somewhere around 50g? Maybe more, but that’s right in the ballpark of how much I should get in a day. Also I have been drinking tons of water today, too. 

Overall, I’m counting this one in the good book. :)